Jane has returned!

Alas, my beautiful Jane has returned. My heart is filled with happiness; I cannot put into words how glad I am that my dear Jane has returned. The past few days I have felt so lost, so empty without her. What is the point in living in Thornfield Hall, which is so large if it has no love, no soul? Jane will soon return to me. She has just called Channel 5, informing them that she is safe and she will return soon. I am so glad to have her back. Oh readers you do not understand how blissful I feel from hearing the return of Jane Eyre. She is my one and only, she is my equal. I know I have betrayed her by keeping my unlawful secret from her, but I know she has it in her heart to forgive me, as I never intended my Jane to ever be hurt from my actions.

Ashamed...

The truth has just come out on Channel 5. I feel so ashamed that the public had to find out this way. I understand that I do not deserve Jane, because of the bigamy that I have committed, but I love her dearly, and she is the only one for me. Bertha was my wife once, but she became ill soon after I married her. I could not bear to see her struggle out in the world by herself, so I kept her with me, safe in Thornfield hall. It was never a marriage to begin with. I am sorry to all of the people that I have betrayed or disappointed, but I cannot stand to write any more.

Interview at Channel 5

Today, I went for an interview with Channel 5 to inform the public about Jane. I dont understand, I feel lost, I need her back. Please, if anyone has seen her, bring her back to me. The interview was quite short, but I hope I and channel 5 got the message across. To all you readers out there, if you see a woman with green eyes, pale skin and blonde hair, wearing a black dress, please contact channel 5 immediately or hashtag at #whereisjaneeyre with any information you might have! you may also tweet me directly @MrEdrochester if you have any comments or any concerns. Please readers, I need Jane back.

Come Back!

Jane, where are you? I need you. I know you had every right to leave me, but without you there is this hole in my heart. I think about your face and I don’t even try to. You’re always on my mind. You were the only one ever on my mind, not Bertha, not anyone else. Just you. I would die for you Jane. You are the only woman I have ever truly loved. My heart aches for you. Jane, wherever you are, if you are reading this, please I beg you to forgive me. I never meant to cause you this suffering. Come back. Come back now, I can’t function without you. And to anyone out there, if you do spot Jane Eyre, I urge you to contact me.

Jane come back, I’m broken…

Loves Secret

Never seek to tell thy love,

Love that never told can be;

For the gentle wind doth move

Silently, invisibly,

 

I told my love, I told my love,

I told her all my heart,

Trembling, cold, in ghastly fears.

Ah! She did depart!

 

      Soon after she was gone from me,

A traveller came by,

Silently, invisibly:

He took her with a sign

-          William Blake

http://allpoetry.com/poem/8438023-Loves-Secret-by-William_Blake

After...

The wedding was an absolute disaster

Imagine the thoughts that are running through Jane's mind. She most likely loathes me now, for the lies that i have kept from her. To every person reading this, i never meant to betray the ways of god. I ask you, for forgiveness, i was only seeking my own happiness, even though how selfish it may have been. She deserved to know the truth. I never meant to drag innocent Jane down with me into this bottomless pit. Jane, please know that i love you, and i will be waiting for you... forever...

Before...

I have never known a woman as compassionate as Jane before. She's something special that has come into my life for a reason. When i am with her its as if we are inseparable, like we were made for one another, like i am finally whole.

I am filled with excitement, but i just want these days to be over, to finally marry her, and to be with her forever. My dark past may come back to haunt me.If Jane finds out, she will never forgive me, she will never see me as the man who loves her, instead she will see me as the man who betrayed her. I will tell her the whole truth on the day that we shall be married one whole year and one day. Then she will know, and maybe she will still see the good in me, and not feel betrayed. I just hope that everything goes according to  plan and i can marry my love, Jane Eyre.

Goodbye for now...

The guests

Finally, i have arrived at back at Thornfield. It feels comforting to be back in a place so familiar, Although hosting all of these guests has been quite tiring. Blanche has also been latching onto me like a parasite, and it has been quite the challenge to rid of her. I do believe that she is only interested in me for my 'wealth'. 

I forced Jane to join us in the drawing room, but she was only subjected to the cruelty of Blanche and her mothers judgemental words, which i was furious with, causing Jane to try to leave the party. I stopped her. Why should she leave? She had more right to be there as any of the guests! But as i saw the tears brimming her eyes, i knew that i must not force her to stay, but i was rather annoyed.

"Good-night, my---"

I cannot believe that i nearly let it slip as she left to retire to her room. Those words just came out naturally from my mouth, as if i had said it a million times before. I bit my lip, forcing myself to stop. 

Well, that is it for now...

We meet again...

It is the same girl! The same girl that startled my horse! Of course I knew this as she stated she was a governess there, however, seeing her there in my home was a little unsettling.   I saw this mysterious woman again, however rather than out in the town, she was in my house. She seemed bold back then, insisting to help me back on my horse, but now as she stood before me, she seemed surprised and maybe a little scared. She seemed to grab my attention, solely because she seemed mysterious. I want to know her, know who she is; I have never known someone so… what would you call it? Different? Intriguing? She sat down and I asked her questions. No parents, no siblings, no home. She had eight years of education at lowood, the woman seemed like a well educated lady, maybe fit for Adele’. I suppose I will have to see...